silent nights | ryan

[APRIL SUMMERS]

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when ya start out



My head is screaming "get a grip, girl!"
"Unless you're dying to cry your heart out!"

~

The street was wet again, it had rained all day and it continued to lightly rain still. Large puddles made tiny rivers on the sides of the roads and the sky was pitch black and the street lamps were the only thing that lit the small town.

April of coarse, being a creature of night, had no problem seeing. Her ice blue eyes glittered in the dark like a cat's as she walked down the side walk carrying a black umbrella. She wore a black coat with jeans and black ankle high boots and underneath her coat was a bright red gathered top. She had on small hoop earrings with gold hearts hanging from them. She also had a gold necklace with a sword and shield pendant.

She was walking quickly, *click click* her heels went, echoing in the empty streets. Once and a while a car drove by but other than that it was a ghost town. It was past midnight, probably about 2 am. Late for a human, mid-day to a vampire.

April stopped at the theater. It's heavy doors were locked shut and no light came from them, but April hadn't expected it to be open. She stopped under it's awning where it had an up to date bullion board. Thankfully it was dry so April could close her black umbrella. She looked through the numerous pages, looking past the lost pet posters and yard sell announcements.

Her eyes flashed a look of sadness when she remembered why she had reasoned herself to come here. She wanted to try out for a play, a skit or something. She had thought it over and decided she was going to try it. She remembered Ryan, and the way he could reach her emotions and push away her coldness. It felt different, but he is gone now, for their own good. Sometimes she wished that things had worked out differently. Since then she had grown her backbone once more, she couldn't show weakness, not ever.

She tried to go back to looking for an ad until finally she found a poster looking for actors and actresses for the play Wicked. Now, April didn't know much about different plats, but that sounded like a play she might be able to relate to. She looked around to make sure no one was around pulled off one of the phone number tabs, stuffing it in her pocket.

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OUTFIT :: here
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LYRICS :: I won't say I'm in Love - Disney's Hercules
CREDIT :: Template made by Goldy of Perfect Immortality

[madired1]

Lied To Much...

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The rain had fallen all days, as if the clouds had been weeping. The grey sky reflected Ryans mood as he strolled aimlessly through town, just to see where his feet would take him. His mind had been heavy all day with thoughts of a girl. Not just a girl, but the girl he had me a while back. April. She had been the only person to ever break through his shell of indifference; She had been the first person he had cared about in 57 years, and he had ruined it. He tried to push the thoughts away, but her blue eyes kept apearing in his mind, swimming with tears that he had caused.

Ryan stopped walking, and completly fed up with himself, ateverything, he smashed his fist against the brick wall of a smallshop. He glared at the place where his fist had left the brick crumbling, and the turned away, shoved his hands into the pockets of his leather jacket, and continued walking down the dark street.

Just then, as if summoned by her memory, Aprils scent passes on the cold breeze. Ryan skidded to a stop, startled and bewildered, and peered down the street. Through the shadows and damp fog Ryan saw a figure standing alone by the theater. He knew her pale blonde hair, her moonlit pale skin and her blue eyes at once. She looked just as she had on the night that they first met in the park.

Ryan was extremely contridicted. Should he run? Should he aproach her? Did he want to see her again? He did. But he didn't want to hurt her again. He hadn't been his cold, uncaring self today as it was, and now, just seeing her had shattered his composure once more. He didn't want to feel this turmoil inside of him anymore, he just wanted to be happy that she was there, no complications.

He knew deep inside that he wouldn't be strong enough to walk away now, so he decided not to prolong te inevitable. He took one hesitant step down the street towards her, then another. "Good evening," he said the exact words he had used in the park the first time he had ever spoken to her, this time letting his voice travel on the wind instead of waiting until they were standing face to face. She would hear him either way, "What is a young lady such as yourself doing out alone at this hour?"


Words:
Mood: Torn
Outfit: navy blue shirt, dark leather jacket, jeans, boots
Notes:
Song: On my Own; 3 Days Grace
Credit: Madi
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[APRIL SUMMERS]

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when ya start out



My head is screaming "get a grip, girl!"
"Unless you're dying to cry your heart out!"

~

It was his scent that hit her first, like the slam of a title wave hitting a city. She didn't think she'd ever forget it. She didn't have the chance to react until she heard him. The damn rain had disguised his footsteps, she cursed the rain silently. She closed her eyes, show no weakness. show no weakness... her mind told her. He was reciting his greeting and she found it harder to keep her emotion in check. She opened her eyes and turned her head, his perfect figure there... just there.

Her eyes were always the hardest to control, they were wide and saddened but betrayed the happiness as well that he hadn't completely abandoned her. She opened her mouth, wanting to say something, but her brain just wasn't working, well it was, it was racing, but it didn't seem to think that a reply was the most important thing to deal with. "Well. I wish I knew. It's been an awful day." she replied, also repeating what she had replied before. "What about you? Shouldn't a charming young man like you be at a club or something?" she gave a small, shaky chuckle. She searched his eyes for emotion, wondering how he felt.

No matter how they felt though, she was still a high ranking vires agent and he was still a unregistered vampire. Why was it always the unregistered vampires? Why me? her heart cried.

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NOTES ::
OUTFIT :: here
MUSIC ::
LYRICS :: I won't say I'm in Love - Disney's Hercules
CREDIT :: Template made by Goldy of Perfect Immortality

[madired1]

Lied To Much...

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Ryans eyes reflected his emotions like a mirror in that moment, Hope, regret, and all the other conflicting emotions inside of him. He allowed everything to show, beacause he didn't want to hide his feelings from April. He never had, and probably never would. He smiled wryly as she followed suite, also replaying that converstation, and he searched her face to try to decifer her thoughts.

He was worried that she wouldn't want to see him, and if so he was willing to disappear, no matter how much it hurt him. If so, he did not want to drag out the pain. Ryan took a deep, shaky breath, "Do.. do you want me to leave? I understand if you do, but i just wanted to apologize first. I shouldn''t have run, and if you want to take me in instead," he tried not to show fear, "Then i'm okay with that too." He held out his wrists, looking at her with his pale blue eyes. He didn't know where that last part had come from. He knew that he didn't want to be captured, but he also knew that he trusted her, and he hadnt shown that to her last time. Instead he had run. He felt guilt in the pit of his stomach at the memory.

He looked down at the rain saoked ground. He knew that April made him act foolish, and he realized that it was happening again. He would rather have her arrest him than send him away. He shook his head and smiled at his stupidity. Ryan looked back up at April, savoring her company as he awaited her answer. "Or.. .We could start over" he added, hope nestled casually in his tone as he threw in the preferable third option before she could dismiss it simply because he had left it out.
Words:
Mood: somber
Outfit: Navy blue shirt, dark leather jacket, jeans, boots
Notes:
Song: On my Own; 3 Days Grace
Credit: Madi
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[APRIL SUMMERS]

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when ya start out



My head is screaming "get a grip, girl!"
"Unless you're dying to cry your heart out!"

~

April listened to him, seeing his emotions clearly. She didn't want him to leave, she breathed in his scent and it seemed to comfort her, filling her with a warmness that too, melted away the mask she wore a a daily basis, until she was in his presence.

He offered his wrists, telling her she could arrest him-though she did see fear flash in his eyes. She chuckled, looking at them. Arresting him was not an option for her. She knew what they did to prisoners, actually she was often taking part in what they did to prisoners, and she wasn't going to let that happen to Ryan.

Then he suggested they start over, and she felt her spirit leap. That's what she wanted. She wanted them to just be as they were before, happy. She walked slowly right up to his hands, "I'm not going to take you in." she said with amusement ringing in her voice. She pushed in his wrists back to his own body, smiling a little. She was happy that he trusted her not to take him in, but she'd be betraying them both if she did.

She felt herself look at the ground sub consciously, then she forced herself to look up, showing all her emotions in turn. Her eyes flashed with memories and seemed to glow with longing as well as swimming with hurt and fear for the future. "I'd like to start over." she whispered, "But we have to both promise to tell each other the complete truth." she added, another episode like last time was the last thing she wanted.

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NOTES ::
OUTFIT :: here
MUSIC ::
LYRICS :: I won't say I'm in Love - Disney's Hercules
CREDIT :: Template made by Goldy of Perfect Immortality

[madired1]

Lied To Much...

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Ryan smiled as she told him that she wouldn't take him in. He was right to trust April, and he should have known it from the beginning. He felt happy when he saw her cold air melt, and her emotions became more clear in her saphire eyes. Ryan felt hope arise in him, like a growing flame. Then he watched her as she looked to the ground, but after a moment her gaze rested on him.

Ryan couldn't help but smile when she told him that she would like to start over. He didn't have to walk away from her again, she didn't want him to. She added that they would have to tell each other everything, and he nodded, a sincere smile spreading across his pale face. The last thing he wanted, he needed, was more dishonesty . "Of course," He said, and then he attempted to right the lies that it was too late to take back: "Firstly, I am not a teacher. I lie a lot, but never again to you, I am unregistered, and i have not stopped thinking about you since is so foolishly ran away"
Ryan looked up and met her eyes, his own eyes repentant, "Did I miss anything?" He asked, a small smile apearing on his features.

Ryan did not take his eyes off of her. Everything seemed so surreal, and he was scared that if he looked away from her April would disapear like smoke in the wind. He savored the sight of her, and the sound of her voice. He really would tell her everything from here on out, no lies. He didn't want to lose her again.
Words:
Mood: hopeful
Outfit: Navy blue shirt, dark leather jacket, jeans, boots
Notes:
Song: On my Own; 3 Days Grace
Credit: Madi
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[APRIL SUMMERS]

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when ya start out



My head is screaming "get a grip, girl!"
"Unless you're dying to cry your heart out!"

~

April listened as he confessed all his lies. She had already figured he wasn't a teacher. If he was unregistered there was no way he was going to risk himself by working in a high profile job like that.

She smiled softly to herself when he admitted he hadn't stopped thinking about her."I don't think so." They stood in silence for a few moments and April realized she should also confess her own lies. "Well, I'm not an actress... yet." she glanced at the bulletin board with a little smile, "I work, live and get my food from the Vires and have done many things I regret." she added quietly, her voice choking a little, "I too, lie too much, but I'm finding it harder and harder to lie to you, and I promise never to lie to you again. I cannot forget you no matter how hard I try and I can never seem to control my emotions when I'm with you."

April stopped, feeling light after getting it off her chest. She felt happiness surge through her as she stood there with them, both their beatless hearts on the table, open and vulnerable. She also felt a lingering fear doesn't this feel oh, so familiar a dark voice told her. She had to tell him now, this couldn't wait. "I was in love once before. To a vampire, when I was still human." she added, pain gathering in her eyes when she remembered the way he caressed her, telling her everything she needed to hear to keep her there.

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NOTES ::
OUTFIT :: here
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LYRICS :: I won't say I'm in Love - Disney's Hercules
CREDIT :: Template made by Goldy of Perfect Immortality

[madired1]

Lied To Much...

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Ryan smiled and listened as she confessed all of her lies as well. He had figured the part about her being a vire, but he was glad to hear that April had also been pursuing acting. He had been able to tell from the start that it was something that she wanted, and he was glad he didn't let her current career get in the way of that. Ryan felt tears come to his eyes as she expressed her emotions towards him. They were so much the same, and perhaps that was why the got along so well, because they knew how it felt to be in each others shoes.

Ryan met her eyes again, and he felt happiness flow through his cold body when he saw the way she looked at him. When he stood, watching his wife mourn his 'death', get remarried, and then looked down on her tombstone, his tears leaving circles on the grey stone, Ryan had been convinced that he would never fall in love again. He had thought that for 56 years, until he had met April. And he would never have to watch her die, because she was immortal, just like him.

Suddenly Ryan saw pain and fear cloud the happiness in her eyes, and his own joy wavered. "I was in love once before. To a vampire, when I was still human." she said urgently, and he suddenly understood. She was even more like him than she had though. She also had her heart broken. "I'm sorry," He said, wondering what exactly had happened, but he didn't want to bring up more painful memories. He knew it hadn't ended well, and that was enough. "Hey, I was in love once too," he added, not able to stop the sorrow from seeping into his voice, "To a human. We were married, but when i was turned..." he trailed off, not wanting to make this about him instead of comforting her. Ryan took her hands in his, "So I sort of understand how it feels to have your heart broken, to not trust anyone with your heart again, but i promise i will not hurt you." He added, smiling wryly.
Words:
Mood: hopeful
Outfit: Navy blue shirt, dark leather jacket, jeans, boots
Notes:
Song: On my Own; 3 Days Grace
Credit: Madi
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[APRIL SUMMERS]

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when ya start out



My head is screaming "get a grip, girl!"
"Unless you're dying to cry your heart out!"

~

April felt relief wash through her when he admitted he too, had been married and in love. She saw the pain in his own eyes as he spoke and felt it as her own. She held his hands tightly, giving him a small smile in hopes of helping cheer him up as he always attempted with her. As he spoke she could hear and understand his emotions because they seemed to mimic hers.

April leaned into him, pressing her cheek into his chest and taking a deep breath. It meant so much to hear him say he would never hurt her, her heart couldn't handle another scratch. She felt tears fall down her cheeks silently for their pain. "I promise, as long as I walk this earth, I will never hurt you.".

April felt his scent and breath it in. She felt it consume her and wash over her until she felt connected to him beyond anything she had ever felt with Jeremy. Perhaps it was sharing a species, perhaps it was their honesty, nonetheless she felt like he was an angel that landed from above and everything felt perfect.

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NOTES ::
OUTFIT :: here
MUSIC ::
LYRICS :: I won't say I'm in Love - Disney's Hercules
CREDIT :: Template made by Goldy of Perfect Immortality

[madired1]

Lied To Much...

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As April leaned into him, Ryan wrapped his arms around her, both comfortingly and protectively, as if he could shield her from all the pain in the world. As he felt her tears soak his shirt, he stroked her pale blonde curls lovingly. "I promise, as long as I walk this earth, I will never hurt you." April whispered, and her words filled his mind with warm joy, dissolving all of the pain othat lingered in his past.

"And I will never hurt you either," he promised. All Ryan wanted was to make her happy, and he knew that he would stare at her beautiful smiling face forever if he could. He wanted to just stand there with her forever , but he knew that he had to be long gone before the sun rose, and he could already see the stars fading.

For once, Ryan didn't want to return to the saftey and tranquility of the forest, instead he wanted to stay here in town. Mostly so that he could be near April, but for the first time since he moved to Oregon, he saw the town as not a threat, but a place of beauty. He concidered then, moving into town. Yes, he liked that idea very much.
Words:
Mood: Love
Outfit: White T-shirt, dark leather jacket, jeans, boots
Notes:
Song: On my Own; 3 Days Grace
Credit: Madi
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[APRIL SUMMERS]

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when ya start out



My head is screaming "get a grip, girl!"
"Unless you're dying to cry your heart out!"

~

April looked up to the sky as she was held in his arms, seeing the first hints of morning. She swallowed, never wanting to leave his strong arms. She pulled away a small amount so that she could look into his face, thinking long and hard. Just gazing into his eyes. He was so handsome, his glowing blue eyes that let her in so easily, his strong arms that held her as if he could never let her go. It all seemed just too perfect to be true. This all just had to be a dream.

When she thought about it, she knew almost nothing about Ryan's current life, and very little about his past. Where he lived, what he did when he wasn't taking strolls, his favorite activities. Not even his music preferences or favorite color or if he had any pets or his dreams for the future. Their time together had been so short and it made April look with anticipation to the future. No, Their future. She felt her eyes glow in his comfort and she wiped the wet under her eyes so her cheeks were dry, her eyes only a little red with salt now and a soft smile on her lips.

How had this happened, anyway. Her life had been so dark for years, the same thing everyday, then boom, it was like she was free, let go of her locked heart and freed from her shackles that bound her to her past life. Like a frozen waterfall that melted in spring she felt light as a bird, invincible. She felt strength and excitement bubble from her and she flung her arms around his neck and kissed him like she'd never be able to kiss him ever again, letting all her passion and tenderness flow from her as fast as the waterfall inside flowed, that had been backed up for years now flooding into a pool of love.

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OUTFIT :: here
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LYRICS :: I won't say I'm in Love - Disney's Hercules
CREDIT :: Template made by Goldy of Perfect Immortality

[madired1]

She is everything I need...

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Ryan gazed into Aprils blue eyes tenderly. Someone as beautiful as her just couldn't be real, and whats more, she wanted him. It all seemed like a dream, and as the morning snuck up on them, he knew that he didn't want it to end. Ryan wanted to hold April in his arms forever. She was the most importnt thing in his life now. She had been the light that led him out of the darkness, and now he just wanted to make sure that he could always be there for her in return.

Something inside of him told him that this was foolish; Ryan hardly knew anything about this girl, yet he had allowed himself to fall for her. Ryan didn't care, he knew that love was foolish, and dangerous, and sudden, but it was also wonderful. Ryan hadn't had anything but selfishness in a long time, and now he had something more than just himself. Ryan felt the flame of hope burning and growing inside of his cold heart.

Suddenly, April flung her arms around him, and Ryan felt her lips press against his. He kisssed her back, letting all of his emotion, all of his love pour out of him. Time seemed to stand still. But as a car raced by on its early morning commute, splashing water onto the sidewalk, Ryan realized just how close morning was. He silently cursed the sun, and reluctuntly pulled away from April, still holding her in his arms, "It's almost morning," he commented sadly to April, and brushed back a pale blonde curl that had fallen out into her face. He wished that the night would chase away the sun, but still, the fact that he now had a future with her to look forward to brought a small smile to his face. Ryan was so glad that he had came across her.

Words:
Mood: Love
Outfit: White T-shirt, dark leather jacket, jeans, boots
Notes:
Song: She is; The Fray
Credit: Madi
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[APRIL SUMMERS]

I can finally see
That you're right there beside me
☆



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I am not my own
For I have been made new
☆

April let out a long sigh after he pulled away from her, looking away though she was unable to conceal the smile on her lips. He had passed the test, he truly did feel about her like she felt about him. She could tell by the way she felt windswept and abuzz after his lips left her own. She didn't want to leave his arms as much as he wanted her to leave his arms. And perhaps the mutuality of that made it feel just a little less painful.

Though she did not at all like it, she knew he was right, the last thing either of them wanted was to die because they couldn't say goodbye soon enough to find a safe place to sleep when the sun rose. She closed her eyes as he brushed her hair out of her face, breathing in his scent and embracing him for a long moment, pretending they didn't only have moments left in each others presence. Yes, the moment had to end. No matter how much she protested, nothing lasted forever. Especially the night, but it comforted her to know it always came back. She had to trust Ryan like she trusted the night to come back or she'd never go to sleep ever again. She found it wasn't that hard with him, and once again she was blind-sided by the way she felt about him.

She opened her eyes, "Where can I find you again?" she asked urgently, she just couldn't take not knowing the next time she'd be with him, "When can I see you?" she added softly, she needed to know, the sun was only going to come sooner and she could feel it slipping away like grains in an hourglass. She wished he could come with her, but it would be much to dangerous for him to even go near the Vires resident building, wouldn't it?

☆
Please don't let me go
I desperately need you
☆

☆NOTES☆
nada
☆OUTFIT☆
here
☆MUSIC☆
See Below XD
☆LYRICS☆
Owl City - Meteor Shower
☆CREDIT☆
Made by Goldy of Perfect Immortality.

[madired1]

She is everything I need...

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Ryan smiled as April asked where she could see him again, and when. The exact question had been on the tip of his tounge, and he took her hand lovingly, savoring her presence. "I think i'm gonna get a room in town," He said, "But as soon as night falls, how about meet me in the park.. where we met" he suggested already missing her. He knew that it would be difficult to leave, but it would be a ridiculous thing to surrender a whole life together to lengthen this soon to be sunny moment.

Ryan hugged her one more time, kissed her cheek softly, and said, "I will see you this evening," he said, and reluctantly headed down the boulevard to where he had seen a small hotel with a "supernaturals tolerated" sign. Usually he would complain about them referring to the supernaturals like animals, like the old "Pets tolerated" signs, but he was in to good of a mood. Just like always, the world was glowing and warm after seeing April.

Ryan looked back at her several times, but eventually she faded into the distance. As Ryan stepped into the door of the small hotel, the sun srung up from the horizon, as if on cue. Ryan payed cash for the room, convincing the human not to check him for registration or anything, and then walked casually up to his room, still thinking of April.

Words:
Mood: Love
Outfit: White T-shirt, dark leather jacket, jeans, boots
Notes:
Song: She is; The Fray
Credit: Madi
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[APRIL SUMMERS]

I can finally see
That you're right there beside me
☆



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I am not my own
For I have been made new
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"Nothing could keep me away." April said with a soft smile, knowing he would be close in town made her heart leap. She would see him again, and they'd have the whole night together! She hugged him gently and her cheek tingled where he kissed her, "Take care of my heart."she whispered into his ear. He drew away and she took one last look into his eyes and watched as he walked away.

Sadly, her request was much more than metaphorical. She wasn't the same without him, like he was the only thing that could melt her. Her own personal fire. She knew she wouldn't be able to help becoming the heartless being she was. She knew she'd have to seriously conciser quitting her job at the Vires. Would she be able to survive without them? She hadn't hunted for blood since she was a new vampire three years ago, and she had been terrible at it.

She watched as he walked down the block until he was no longer visible. She watched him go with love and happiness in her eyes and then opened her umbrella and walked down the street towards her own home a few blocks away. Her heart aching and the coldness returning with every step. Though it felt oh, so similar, her mind couldn't leave him and she realized the more she thought about him, the more control and emotion she had. She now knew that was, and forever would be, her savior.

☆
Please don't let me go
I desperately need you
☆

☆NOTES☆
whose going to start the thread this time? I can if you wish, but if you want to I'm fine with that.
☆OUTFIT☆
here
☆MUSIC☆
See Below XD
☆LYRICS☆
Owl City - Meteor Shower
☆CREDIT☆
Made by Goldy of Perfect Immortality.